The constant pain of being such a soft heart, the endless crying nights because distance sucks!
I try to be strong for you, because for me get up in the morning and go to classes are already a victory! Giving up is a fight that I can't lose, but the rest, can be brave for myself, I don't think I have the strength...
I want to rise myself, but the most of days I end up sad with a broken and heavy heart, until we can talk again and put that smile for a seconds. That "happiness" is my hope for face another day until the day that we will be together.
I really hate these days when I'm so weak, when I can't face the reality and transform myself in that sensitive and dark girl. The thoughts, the sensations, the memories are too much, I have the routine and the guilty pleasures but isn't enough when I just see the dark and don't have you by my side to light up my way. I want to scream my pain away, I want to smash things, I just want this pain stop, not feel more and more each day.
You're my reality, I don't want to be alone. I need you to be my strength, don't let me lose who I am.