I feel numb.
I feel emotional.
I feel a volcano inside of myself.
Connect in other ways.
I feel like I'm inside of a movie. With those moments of music in the background, the wind in your hair, the perfect weather or the sound of rain, looking outside and then inside. Realizing that this whole adventure is happening and happened but at the same time feels like a dream.
This chapter is getting to an end, my life is slowing down. When everyone around me still has their lives moving so fast. When my life is still moving fast on the outside but inside, I'm sitting in my special place and seeing outside my body.
I don't wanna say goodbye. Give that last words. And then the uncertainty if I will ever see them again... The uncertainty of a future that I have no control.
I created a new life, found the new me. Learned to live and enjoy even more each moment. And in the between I passed throught a lockdown in another city alone.
But I miss my home so much. Although it seems that it was in another life, is where everything started.