It's been a great experience, but this feeling of homesick is stuck on my body. I get home and I don't have that comfort of our house, I don't have you or the cat. I'm not completed, there are pieces of me that stayed there.
I feel the loneliness so hard some days. I try to go against it, keeping my mind in the present and keep working in my own development... My heart stays very small and flies away for the memories that make me smile but missing, even more, everything that I had.
I let myself cry when I need, I learned that if I keep pushing to a corner that falls it will be so much worse. I don't put restrictions, I feel, I talk, I write. Because is hard, some days more than others.
I miss him so much and now anything can happen or not even happen. That is crushing my spirit. The days are passing and I have the urge to see you, to feel you, to have our moments. Have you really present in my life again.
I'm homesick, I'm sad, I'm not entirely completed, always with the feeling that something is missing.
Believe in me and trust me ❤